Bye, for now

This time it’s hard for me to continue blogging for the next half of the year. It’s the beginning of my final year at college and especially the time meant for my preparation to get a job. I want to do it.

I have to better my skills, start applying for jobs, attend interviews, and basically reduce work in total for those tasks to seem easier and fun. If this was 2017, I would have given up college to write but I have observed otherwise. Writing is not something I do as an excuse to anything. So, it’s a part of something bigger than just being a reason to give up what is already a part of my life. I write because I don’t have any kind of attachment to this process whatsoever. I love creating so much that this is my 111th day in a row posting on this website. Something I didn’t really plan out for the blog. And, I feel more comfortable with writing than ever before. Creating just won’t stop be whatever my decision with it. This makes me know for sure that I can do it (writing) given any time and situation because of having no attachment.

That’s the beauty of writing, I don’t have to give up anything else to do it. It’s independent of all other entities unlike preparing for interviews. But, in someways I have learnt how the corporate world too has a lot to do with the love for your work. I really want to get better at coding. I want to see why it’s possible to have both writing and programming influencing my life as if neither had a choice. It’s not really helpful to say that one is out of the question because of the other.

What if it’s a bad idea to stop writing?

I’m aware of this problem. And, I’m pretty sure it’s a bad idea to stop doing something you love. So, here’s what I have planned for the situation – I’ll completely stop posting content online, because it’s the idea of having to produce content that might end up being counter-productive to my preparation. This means not publishing articles, no poems and no artwork either.

I won’t stop writing. This is very much essential to my process of getting better at writing and even programming too. As I’ve read in Ikigai, it’s suggestive to keep your skills outstretched because it gives the sense of flexibility to whatever I do. It helps me enjoy doing whatever I want to work with. This means my mind needs to float when I expect my brain to work highly active. So, it only makes sense to keep continuing the art of writing as I’ve seen it only make my life better and in no ways counter-productive. It actually helps me get better work done.

Quality > Quantity

Not gonna lie, I’m still sceptical of this step. And, it’s only going to be a good idea if I have fun while I prepare for the interviews. That is exactly why I’m discontinuing the blog for few months. My old posts will be here forever, and knowing this fact really makes my doubts fade away. The heart of this blog (stories, perspectives, artwork and more) will still be here and I’ll still be reading from other creators. Nothing is changing except for the fact that I’ll not be producing content for the blog. Some time off to relax, that’s it.

I have a billion (I counted) more stories to tell. Keep reading, keep looking!

What is Abstraction

This photograph was clicked in a garage, and it’s not really what it looks like. The whole thing is a lie, to be honest. If you were to ask me, I’d tell that this is an aerial shot of a river passing by the mountains on the moon. The one we have. It really is that to me.

Abstraction is a friend of mine that I get to play with in my photographs. I never really want the pictures that I click to be obvious in the story that they tell. What’s so fun in that? You wouldn’t like a trailer that gives you the whole plot of the movie in as little time as possible. I wouldn’t watch that movie.

And, here in this photo I see that the movie might just never really present itself to me – making it impossible to ever come to a conclusion.

Would you be able to live with that unmet feeling forever? How long would it take for you to stop being okay without knowing what you see? To me, it’s just okay to never know. I mean, that’s the point of these concepts that you’ll never fully understand, never come to conclusion with. That’s their whole point. And, I’d say they’re doing a great job at being sources of confusion, anxiety and uncertainty.

Abstraction is just that to me. It is to approach a concept with an eye that’d basically defy all the meaningful stories you could possibly associate with that concept.

To the moon.

Into The Unknown

This photo was taken on my trip to Tirupati with my family. It’s not the kind of trip I’m most fond of, visiting temples and praying all the time. I am there for the times to spend with my family. That’s all I am there for, plus for the feel of travelling. Where I get to click photos, eat new kinds of dishes and meet new people.

And, this picture was taken on my way back from Tirupati. I can’t remember the location in precise memory, because I never tend to keep a track of cities very well when I pass by them. I mean, with a view like this while you sit in the train – moving, listening to music – it only makes sense for other senses to fade away. All I can see, hear and taste is the scent of freedom.

I get detached into reality.

Only if I were to choose from the two roads, I would die but choose. The uncertainty in my life is only true, and terrifyingly painful at times. But, sometimes it is the best option I’ll ever have – to not know. There is pain, but there is also relief in a way. What if you knew what you never had to? There comes peace in not taking control of what’s right and what’s wrong. Who am I to tell me who I am?

In this confusion lies a tree next to the lake, where I shall visit every now and then. Me alone, in the mist of unknowns, peacefully watching the fishes swim from this end to the middle of the lake. There’s beauty in what hides beneath the crust. As I watch the train passing by, I am greeted by the kid inside. Who is this child? Do I know him? Before it’s too late, I realise I’ll never know. And, I feel relief rushing through my brain for not knowing a few things in life.

The child asks me, as I sleep the day “Who are we to wonder where we’re going?” And, I feel relief rushing through my brain for not knowing a few things in life. Not knowing it is me waving from the train. I mean, it’s me who clicked this photograph. Yeet.