I think I think too much. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why we all are born – to think of the reasons why we are born at all. I start my day wondering about what I’ll make of it, and end it thinking what I made of it.

In these thoughts, I end up making nothing of my time. I am not my thoughts.

Don’t you get sick of it? Your voice repeatedly telling what this could be and what that was. How this works? Why does it work? What works and what does not? There is no control to what we think. And, perhaps there never will be in a world so sane. It’s impossible for one to not think. It’s almost as if one would stop breathing.

You breathe, you think.

Breath is all it takes to solve this. You are not your thoughts. You are the breath, you repeat your rhythm. Your thoughts are only but a perspective of a dimension so cleanly not possible by me to describe. I’ve been meditating now and then. It’s hard to not only get rid of the bad habits for me – but also to cultivate good ones.

What is your meditation? Your time writing something. Your dance. Your ride to the mountain peak. Your breath.

Notes to the one who has entered 20s

Dear Shreyas,

Here are a few tips from yourself learning from the amazing life so far. Even when you are self-obsessed, you are made to believe in the notions of the millennia. In which, you might just turn out to be a narcissist. Apart from wanting your work to define you, it is always safe to trust in the generation’s hardships offered.

If it means to be old-school, it is always better than duplicating the generation’s deeds. Creating. Because doing that means you might just not be of the future-cool or even the “old-school.”

It means to be of now.

Slowing down helps you

Most of the times, your actions have been better when done with time. You take time to realise. It is this abundant time you feel as your companion in any hard-period. A chigga outbreak, or an year of depressing thoughts. It is time and light that will guide you.

Spontaneity too has given you joy incomparable.

Living now

As Buddha’s lessons have taught you, living now is the ultimate achievement you seek for in a moment. Believe whatever you want to, but let it be now that you believe in. Wondering if tomorrow you’ll have a job or why you didn’t have one yesterday – has got you nowhere. When you did stop doing it, you have written nearly 14,000 words on a blog. You had offers and chances to make money you never wished for. You cleared 17 backlogs in a year. Remember, passing 20 subjects is different from clearing one subject. And, you did it.

You traveled to the mountains and the sea. And this guy has already given you the medal. You lost it. But, you still have to reach the highest mountains, swim with the currents and live with the trees.

Your life’s quality is independent

Of money. Of time. Of space. And, of anyone.

You are not writing screenplays. You are reading more often. Blah. You love the skies with your family. You rock smiles with your friends. Blah.

Your writing is just about good. You love visuals. You do good photography. Blah. You want to make films. I can’t write notes at a stretch about fMRI (GitHub plug) let alone you. Back to fMRI. Blah. You are doing fine with the works of all kind that you dream of. And, time has never been enough. But, you hope for the dreams as always.

You are awesome.

Artist Ultimate: About Leonardo from Vinci

Leonardo da Vinci is a long name. No shit, Sherlock.

I’ll address him as Leo. Also, Leo is not here, so he wouldn’t mind it. If you think changing names like this is a sin, you are the most right person to read this article. Because, da Vinci might defy your beliefs. You need this.

Patterns, as I have seen and wondered about, are the ultimate conclusion I can make by seeing anything da Vinci has created. It sounds a bit cheesy, and we’re not here to cook. A little more about this later.

look at the angel’s hair

Okay, Leo sounds too cheesy. Sorry Leo, I’ll have to let you go.

da Vinci is my spirit to look at the way I look at any form of art. He observes science very finely, and clearly in his subjects while maintaining the magic within. This helps me feel at ease, as it is believable that it’s real. It might be very amusing and magical, but it is real. He is known to have defied his very own status in the society. From being a basterd to a legitimate artist, not to mention – a very good one, he refused to obey the norms of the 15th Century.

Why do I like da Vinci so much?

the vitruvian man

1458, in Vinci, Italy – he was born a basterd, not living with the name of his supposedly prosperous family of origin – he had to deal with the problems of being illegitimate when it was meant a shame to be an illegitimate son. No benefits of a normal human being. This made Leonardo challenge the norms and become a very important figure in the society so that he could escape being a basterd.

He was born at the right time in Italy, as it was the right one to be born as a genius. And, Leonardo was so much more than a genius. He addressed what even geniuses couldn’t, the very dumb things one doesn’t ponder upon at first sight. Like the motion in hair, in a painting. It is so basic to even think about, and he made the painting talk about this motion. This importance to the detail of a moving hair, or even just the motion of waves formed by the curls – is astonishing, psychedelic, mind-altering and eye-opening. Plus, other words you can describe “mind blowing”. And, now the dumb thing, this motion is the very own subject at work. How amazing!

the angel’s hair i was talking about earlier

More than two decades later, as I spit out very important parts of his life, he became an artist recognised by the Medici family in Florence, Italy. The Medici family was a very powerful one, as it was very rich and it controlled the votes in Florence. Classic rich family moves.

They were at power, as one of the banks of authority. They had enemies because of this very obvious reason. And, money ruled. They knew Leonardo was going to be very helpful in making new inventions with his intelligence and help technological developments speed through time in Florence.


He then moved forward to creating new pieces of art while describing the science very clearly behind these creations, as a mathematician, a biologist, a physician, a painter and more. He is the ultimate artist.

Leonardo da Vinci defying the way this world sees and works, has inspired many of us to keep continuing. It’s never going to be fair, to stop and conclude his life. I will keep looking more.

And, one day he will be.

do you see a pattern?

Haul Up, Grawl Down

I don’t know what you’d be doing in New York.

Due to my conscience, it makes me only possible to feel as if others are thinking about me differently. Like I do about them. Keeping up with the sense, I somehow flow up and down – forward. If there is any ambiguity in my words, look more into them.

“Human” by Jon Bellion

Ego is very critical. It holds the power to defy the righteousness, on the common grounds which one views this creation we all love and live in. It hurts me very bad to see a few around me running around the streets like they are the dogs from the sisterhood of power and money. They have done nothing in their life. That should say a lot about these men and women, who walk around with high esteem like they have achieved something by liking dank memes from 9gag and not RVCJ memes. Also, they buy Gucci over Nike. Unfortunately, we are at those standards where Nike has become the underdog to a few. Rich kids, and only rich kids, are talking about Gucci like they have been living at the Queen’s Palace all their life. She left us, when will you leave her?

there’s no sun, but it’s there

Me defining, or even trying to define this problem of ego is a sure shot of failure, at my level of experience with it. It’s only fair if I see and observe these people who are very obvious at showing their worth.

Fortunately, I can make sense out of these observations. These people, as I refer to them by “these people” would flip out by me refering to them this way. Somehow, their brains have already decided it’s not the right thing and they should act on it. Also, there are “wrong” things registered in their minds. When these happen, they will act. But, even here – they will make it an obvious action, where you will know for sure that it was Narendra Modi who started the Swachh Bharat campaign. This does not mean Narendra Modi is an egoistic personality, because as I am not, he is still a human. If it ever occured to you that I am addressing him as an example for how egoistic people behave, you have to work on the way you read blogs.

If you found that discomforting, about me telling you to learn how to read blogs, you might be facing problems in the way you take suggestions. So, learn how to read blogs and mostly how to live. Because, many have literally forgotten that learning is a part of this life since we all are busy spreading hate like a diabetologist distributing chocolates. It’s not wrong, but it’s wrong specifically.

You have seen people around you call out others for them having a good physique. They appreciate this. It feels like an appreciation, because that is what the society has set the definition as for something to be appreciated. I’ll tell you why, as I have observed, this happens.

leaves can be red too

If someone says “You have a good height”, he means you have a good height. And, she always does. Now, when you’re short, they do not address you with the label “good” or even “bad”. They instead say “You are too short”. The same applies for any trait you see being a compliment in and around the world. So, the next time you are called out, think again – because you might not be called out. I know it’s better if we stop looking for some kind of meaning in everything.

I hope we all one day will stop labeling things by good and bad, and furthermore defy the labels of high and low.