2020: In The End

I have never done a thing like rewinding my year to look back on it because I’ve never come across an year like 2020 in all my life. Spoiler alert, it is my best one yet and I don’t hate it.

Yes, you read that right – I had a great time this year unlike the popular opinion, however, I do share some of those opinions as well. Like, I learnt how tough it is for a few douche-bags to not wear a mask. That it takes courage to be alone. That it sucks to be alone. And, so on. Yet, this has been my best year so far because I want to look at it that way. What’s good for me if I completely hate it, right?

“Say No To Hatred!” should replace “No Smoking” in restaurants in the age of polarization.

That’s all I have to say about my hatred towards hatred. Let’s get going with the good of this year. 2020 brought me so many opportunities, stories, lessons and accomplishments that I almost hate why I never looked at life the way I did this year. Maybe it’s my age (turns out I’m growing) or maybe the circumstances (lockdown + free amount of free time) made me pause and contemplate more than I’ve ever done. It’s good to contemplate. It’s always good to contemplate.

For starters, I’ve been healthier than ever – one of the achievements I’d like to bag in this year. I don’t do much to work out, but I try to stay active and eat healthy. But, I still love pizza, rolls and whatever (edible) junk you can put cheese on and have beer with. However, it’s important to stay fit. Good for your mind, good for your breath. I’m waiting to pick up my mountain bike from the store. So, in 2021 you can expect a few thoughts on cycling to slide (or should I say ride) into the blog here and there.

Back to 2020.

This year, I’ve been much more calmer and aware of my surroundings – thanks to my struggles on keeping consistency with the process of meditation. And, I am acing it at life (in general, at least, to my standards) by even just getting up daily to face the day. And, it can get mundane.

It is boredom, that usually wins – but, I’m working on it. I don’t think I have ever faced so much of a bad tongue for everything. I don’t like watching shows or movies anymore like I used to, probably because I have overcooked that bit way too much this year. No thriller excites me anymore. I’d rather watch my old favourites over new ones.

I hope my attitude towards boredom changes. As Tim Urban says, according to his Pixel Theory, that life is a picture while we live in a pixel. Maybe my life is not boring, it’s only repetitive. Including things I love to do, on repeat, is the only way out. The struggle is real.

Speaking of struggles, I have realised how much my struggle to be a better human matters. It matters not just for me but everyone around me. I’ve given myself into the notions of being kind to others because that’s the only way we can be happy together. What’s the point of being happy alone?

If there is any point, I think I know what it means. I’ve found my share of happiness in solitude.

But, it’s much easier to be all alone by yourself – as happy – I have realised. Because, it takes more than just your own feel-good efforts to be happy with the people around you. I have learned that we all struggle in being kind to others because some can be really just not worth it. But, they are always worth it – more than ever. They too are just humans wanting to be kind but often fail at it. It’s nobody’s fault but somebody’s. I’m no psychologist, so I won’t suggest shit about judging others. But, it makes only sense to me to be kind to others in a world filled with assholes.

Not that it matters, but I hope I’ll build the habit to keep others around me happy. I hope you do too. This brings us to the end of my rewind to 2020 and much like the year I don’t think my article is certain or that it matters to be blamed for a terrible time.

Thank you for being my reader and for supporting my efforts. You are kind, see? Not that hard like the way people make a fuss about it. See you in 2021 with much more exciting articles, thoughts on amazing books and just taking it easy.

Tell me how was your year in the comments. And, sign up (below) to get notifications directly to your mail next time I post something. This year I have written over thirty-eight thousand words and it felt like a hundred or so. Okay, maybe it felt like a thousand but it’s crazy what consistency can result in. A 100 day streak and a million more thoughts!

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Jiggle Wiggle

Can words be funny in the way they sound? What is the language that’ll connect this world? How far is the pandemic’s end? Oh, that was off-topic. Right? No one can tell for sure, and you’re a good human if you considered doubt to be your friend here.

I think they can. Yes. Words can sound funny. Here’s how I believe someone can ruin the humour though:

  • Scalp gulp
  • Red bed
  • Fruit puke
  • Yellow mellow
  • Cool stool
  • Poop scoop
  • Covid, slow it
  • Mower, pull over

Don’t tell me you did. I think I can live now.

Hit me with your terrible ground-breaking ideas.

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Altruism for the human in a pandemic

My new show ‘Involuntary Comfort’ is a podcast where I speak carelessly. I also want to hear from you. What do you think about it? What could be better? Which kind of stories do you love?

So, here’s the question I want to try and answer today: Is altruism possible in today’s world?

Firstly, the ‘possibility’ in this question is a valid variable. And secondly, the ‘world we live in today’ is a modern cue for obvious reasons.

Being selfless is practically a good way to deal with the coronavirus pandemic. However, it has a different sense to being selfless. Being careful about your safety will help you contain the virus and hence become selfless according to the definitions set by a pandemic.

If someone stays at home watching Netflix, work on their own, sleeping and discarding the choice to have a social gathering – they risk a judgement to be seen as someone who is self-absorbed. And, they are. This nowhere means what they’re doing is wrong if not correct. The point is they are less wrong than the ones going out which will make a huge difference to the dynamics of COVID-19. So, in a way they could not have been more right about this.

The last time I saw – there’s literally nothing wrong about caring for your health either.

If it means to be self-absorbed when all you do is care about others’ safety, then so be it – during when the right thing to do is exactly that. Because, you’re being selfless by giving up the joy of being outside. In the end you are helping everyone by staying put and in containing the killer.

The practical reason for this to be the only way out of the chaos is you won’t realise when you’re spreading it for real.

So, just don’t give yourself (and try for others) the chance to even risk spreading it. If you have to be out there, wear a mask for the sake of another life and eventually even yours. It’s not that hard if you’re not flippant towards humanity.

A part of why this could be beneficial to you is a fundamental acoustic in your mind. Those who have been staying at home can be proud (while having no guilt and without being selfish) to say these words out loud:

“I had no part in the mass killing. Directly or indirectly!”

This may seem offensive to those who are walking around like this is pre-coronavirus with the disguise of the times being post-coronavirus. Again, no one really has a vital part in the death of someone after spreading this virus. But, one can be responsible in the slightest ways possible for an infection. It’s up to personal belief whether you consider this as responsible enough to be murderous.

Here’s a perspective from ‘Barking Up the Wrong Tree’, and it says:

Looking at the research we see that during disasters, altruism is the rule. Selfishness is the exception.

Eric Barker on being self-less

Altogether, it seems like a concept hard to believe in (but very easy to understand.) It’s common to have varying opinions about this. What I don’t understand is – people choose to be carelessly selfish. And, specifically often complain about the economy and boredom for weird reasons.

It’s clearly falling down. The economy and your interesting life are both in deterioration. So, does this mean we need to have the bad guys backing the bad step? People who know barely about the working of an economy are using it to reason their time outside eating a pizza in their favourite cafe. Why not go to Italy? You’ll also help the global-economy of ‘ignorant reasons to travel’ while helping the exports for mozzarella. Sherlock, it doesn’t work that way.

Even though ICMR claims no community-transmission is happening, it’s hard to believe in these claims. Knowing the numbers increasing so rapidly it is seemingly an impossible reality we are being forced to face. In fact, the numbers are increasing for the first time in my city where it’s obvious enough and that’s why this article had to be published.

To be human right now is to let go of the joys for some days. You took the break, and it has to end somewhere. Let’s be honest, having your favourite chai on the road is only making you feel better. Not the economy.

However, it’ll be hard for the chaiwala to make a living if everyone stops drinking his tea. The point is these customers won’t feel slightly responsible when he was not suggested a better way to sell the tea during a lock-down.

Here’s how even the most vulnerable entities of this recession are solving their problems:

“We are thinking of starting ‘sev puri’ and ‘paani puri’ takeaways and supply our ‘chutneys’ hygienically packed to general stores which are open,” Sharma said.

From The New Indian Express

This goes beyond the tea. This is about making the seller survive and grow with the times we face. By doing this, you are helping yourself and the community.

But, a wise way to do this is by not risking any life you see. Especially your own.

Many need to stop making excuses to be out there. You are not helping if you don’t know how you’re helping the economy. If you do know how, understand the semantics of it to keep yourself safe out there. Wear masks to help everyone contain the virus and not to get rid of a fine. It’s about time we all became human.

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A Glass Full of Empty

One gallon of water in one little container in the ocean of seas. So small, and yet so big to our bodies for a day. What do we compare our problems with? The others who have solved theirs and living their life. Or, to those having a harder time than us?

You can compare to any one of these. But, you can’t feel good because of it. Some might feel good looking at those with terrible times. And, it is a feeling I’d never want to feel at home with. I know that such comparisons are not only temporary, but clearly helpless to my situations – be whatever.

My point is, like ourselves – our problems are unique. But, there is always similarities. Looking at such similarities, it is only better not to compare. Just looking at them and if there’s anything to learn, I’ll grab my book and note my brain-cells of such information.

Our life unto now is nothing more than memory and what we make of these memories. Life ahead is nothing more than dreams. Repeating itself, now is all that really is.