All eyes on me

In this world, I see there are many options to choose from when it comes to growing. To become a better version of yourself. I always thrive to grow, and I am not successful all the time. Rarely do I succeed. But, it’s good to keep trying. All things good probably don’t come easy.

I have habits that I dare not have. And, some are good while some are bad. To build good ones is the only way I know of to get rid of the bad ones. But, to remove is a bad habit, as mentioned in Atomic Habits, is like removing an Oak tree from its roots. And, adding a good habit to your routine is like nurturing a flower. Bit by bit, we proceed.

I hope one day, these eyes stop seeing at me.

Why should I grow? No, I know why – but how? How do I grow when I am not always sure why? No, I know why. There is no other way to live my life than to its fullest. I want to be aware of what happens during every second of it. I want to be fit while I contemplate – so that it looks like a good shape is thinking. Kind of like a sexy figure from the historical times that makes you believe in what it thinks.

Here is my list, the end point of it all – making lists to grow, it probably won’t work. But, I have to take care of whether it does or not.

  • Meditate
  • Ride my bike
  • Journal
  • Solve problems

This is the system I want to set for myself. These give me values and this gives me pride to think about myself. And, for sure I’ll keep writing.

So long.

LSD

When there is freedom, there is the choice to write. I can’t face a few hurdles while I’m not focused. These drugs are just another way out. But, I don’t need a way out. I want a way in. I want to trip inwards and make me see the world in me. This just might help me see the world I live in. A way out.

All the answers I seek are right here. It only takes time to go through.

I hit the border. A sip of water. So, when I talk borders, what comes to your mind? How far from here are borders to you? Do you see countries of a different kind on the other side of the border? Do you see a different world?

Or, do you not see a border at all?

Live, suffer, die. Live, stream, dive. I see why I can’t fly in this world. I am supposed to walk and see what’s above me. It reminds me how small I am to this world, this universe. To these we are just a tiny dot on the longest line of time. We are probably not even seconds in the hours of this universe.

And, everything will fade. Nothing of this might remain except for as memories.

Come ride with me. Let’s go to places far from here where there are no borders but every single soul dancing to a singular beat. A rhythm of the universe making us come together to our history. Let’s fly together, we don’t need any wings for us to fly.

Here’s our highway, let’s walk!

Art cover by u/Pablo_MGN